the heat is on

RANT

2011-09-22T03:14:00.000-07:00

It really, really bothers me when people associate me with their problems. Just because I don't accede to your demands, you'll have to act like a melancholic. Lol seriously? Speaking ill of my friend in front of me isn't gonna make me like you very much. Besides... You solely made me see the negative side of you. Go reflect on yourself and whatever you said, and think again whether it's even worth talking to a person like yourself.

ok this is the first time i'm actually using 'Lol' in my blog after my primary school-sec1 days? i dont know. i shall make my blogger a place where i rant.... maybe. oh and this rant makes me sound so bitchy...? BUT I'M REALLY ANGRY

Shifting

2011-09-02T10:00:00.000-07:00

Here's my new blog! (Sorry I honestly couldn't think of a nice URL. But when I did, I have no idea how to change it)

http://spinningtops.livejournal.com/
Will be blogging there from now on! Only if I really miss this space then... I'll shift back. But for now, livejournal it is.

Cya all there. :-)

Cascade

2011-08-30T06:33:00.000-07:00

We are such camwhores. Hahaha. Good day! Although we didnt have much to do after catching our movie. Caught SUCKSEED (It's a thai movie btw HAHA) because there werent many others to choose from plus there was an unexpected promotion for that movie! Hehehe. :-)

I cannot wait for the holidays to arrive ahhhhhhhhhhhh.

Reads

2011-08-29T09:50:00.000-07:00

A few books I just got from Times bookstore this afternoon! I was supposed to be shopping for clothes or whatever junk since Topshop was having a discount... But it looks like the books appealed to me more. Love days like this when I spend more time in bookstores than indulging in retail therapy. :-)

You can take everything I have/You can break everything I am

Go on and try to tear me down/I would be rising from the ground

Who they are

2011-08-29T09:05:00.000-07:00

People who are insensitive
People who don't understand
People who don't care
People who ask only because they want to know, not because they are concerned
People who are selfish
People who take things for granted
People who are greedy
People who don't accept people's comments
People who contradict themselves
People who are demanding
People who are shallow minded

People who don't get what you're expecting of them

And the list goes on

2011-08-23T07:44:00.000-07:00

i totally abhor seeing my friends posting on social networking sites about them wanting to end their life because there are things bothering them and stuff like that. there is no way you can overcome a bad situation like this. stop being so overly emotional. it looks like you never knew that while youre still able to breathe with no difficulty, another person may be taking his last. please, get hold of yourself.

my blog is kind of like twitter to me now. i dont have a twitter account though. haha.

2011-08-23T03:02:00.000-07:00

I have to believe that everything happens for a reason. And everything happens for a good cause. I shall not lack optimism.

2011-08-22T18:20:00.000-07:00

why dont people care as much as i want them to?

Tinge of nostalgia

2011-08-20T23:53:00.000-07:00

Here are a few photos of myself that were taken last year. I don't think I look like myself (in the photos)anymore. I looked more adorable and skinnier then. :-(

2011-08-20T23:48:00.000-07:00

It’s important to think positive. Did you know that? And to take control of my life. And to always look on the bright side. Did you know that if it’s not one thing, it’s another and life’s a vale of tears but we’ve got to rise above it. Sometimes we’ve got to get back to the driving seat and face our demons and bite the bullet. We’ve got to laugh in the face of everything life throws at us. And that’s why you’re here - so you can laugh with me.

The end

2011-08-20T21:25:00.000-07:00

Toms! MH's wearing the animal printed one hahaha.

Much of a photo spam this time, haha. Okay these were taken on Friday right after our common tests. I guess it was considered a very bad morning for me but things got better after we went shopping at town. Had a really great time and I love you girls very much.

Paramore's concert today. :(

2011-08-20T20:00:00.000-07:00

i think it's time for a fresh new start. i cannot continue seeing myself like this. i need to know my goals. i need to work towards them. these years i havent been taking my studies seriously. but i hate to see myself fail and struggling with my emotions after that.

i really need to see a change in me.

/edit

disappointments. my life is full of them. but what is life without disappointments? shall continue to live by the quote, 'what doesnt kill you makes you stronger."

2011-08-20T19:56:00.000-07:00

2011-08-20T10:52:00.001-07:00

But.... You're all I have. You're all I'm left with.

2011-08-17T01:44:00.000-07:00

bad day today. just learnt that i am only given 2 choices for this year's altc: to go for this year's SEC2 altc as a participant OR just dont go. not allowed to be a facilitator. just because i missed the leaders camp in june. :( i actually understand the reason theyre not allowing us to be facilitators but still... sigh why is this happening. i remembered asking people, ' what if they dont allow us to facilitate since we didnt go for the one in june?' they all replied with super positive answers that we will still be going for it. see what happened?? facilitating the sec2 altc was the only thing i was looking forward to going because i dont think im even up for the leaders trip to melbourne. and since i missed the one in june. :(

need to get over it.

chemistry, chinese language and social studies paper tmr. wish me luck guys. need to be more driven

ps: i just ate some chinese kueh (idk how i should spell it hahah). told my mom to steam it and so she did. didnt realise that it was actually really oily till i was eating the 2nd piece. :(

Common tests

2011-08-12T05:45:00.000-07:00

12/08 - today marks the start of our common tests. dreading.. without a doubt. but i guess the english paper, followed by the math was a good start. hm mm, 2 papers down.

particularly disappointed with myself. i hate it when i dont manage my time well. and at times i even take advantage of the amount of time i have left after completing half the paper. oh and i hate proving for emath. would anyone care to teach me?

it is such a warm day...

2011-08-07T05:51:00.000-07:00

FOP

2011-08-05T10:19:00.000-07:00

Pictures before and after Festival Of Praise. Great time with lovely friends, although I was kinda tired and stuff. Waiteng and Mitchell came with us and they made the whole time very much more enjoyable!

Going to the polyclinic tomorrow morning to get a referral letter to the hospital to get my ankle checked. Looks like it hasn't recovered yet...

Oh and before I forget, training at Sino yesterday was surprisingly good! Thank God. I really hope it'll remain like this. :-)

2011-08-03T00:26:00.000-07:00

6mins left for me to blog.

It's Thursday tomorrow and I promise, I am totally dreading it. Reason being... I'm going to Sino for training tomorrow. The thought of it makes me so nervous. Have this urge to improve myself therefore going back there to train. I pray that everything will go smoothly. Pleaseeeeee. :(

2011-08-01T08:32:00.000-07:00

i closed my eyes gently as i whispered to myself once again, "everything's gonna be alright".

Allure

2011-07-29T07:43:00.000-07:00

Two weeks of school passed by like a breeze. School has been dreadful as always but I guess things are getting better as days go by. I just hope I'll have more motivation to study and have longer concentration spans, ugh. :( It sucks not being able to reach my goal, yet I give up so easily. Success seems so far away now, I cannot even smell it.

Need to start studying. :(

Results for the Melbourne trip will only be out next Friday, good luck folks! Keeping my fingers crossed. X X

P/s: Enjoying my hot chocolate from Starbucks while typing this.

I need a shower. Bye!

2011-07-16T23:29:00.000-07:00

Mind the red dot on my nose. It's not a pimple. I think I look weird... Oh and my dad in the first picture, hahaha.

Reading is my new hobby.

I'll update whenever time allows.

2011-07-16T07:16:00.000-07:00

It sucks to be me. I wish I was somewhere else. Anywhere but here.

Why won't you let it rest?

most ponderous and substantial things

2011-07-16T00:22:00.000-07:00

here i am sitting in McDonald's, lifting my head to watch people pass by as i scribble away on my book. not to forget, i'm all alone. times like this allow me to have adequate 'alone' time as well as to listen to my favourite songs, evoking memories. i like being alone like this. not lonely, but solitary.

Inevitable

2011-07-05T07:23:00.001-07:00

I think it's so so so difficult to get people's understanding. All I can say is that I'm sorry I'm not good enough for everyone. How did I actually land myself in such predicament?

One more thing, I hate my immense pride.

2011-07-05T07:23:00.000-07:00

I think it's so so so difficult to get people's understanding.

In the world full of wrong, you're the thing that's right

2011-07-04T06:17:00.000-07:00

One of my favourite chocolates. :D

Apologies for such random pictures. I was desperately wanting to post pictures on this space so...
Alright, anyway, Youth Day today was spent like any other day. Somehow it was more fruitful though. I need more days like this.Resuming lessons tomorrow after our longer-than-usual weekend(because I don't find 3 days that long) and feeling quite numb about it. I no longer feel vexed. But I have an uneasy feeling about tomorrow's training and I don't know why. :(

You said it again, my heart's in motion, every word feels like a shooting star
I'm at the edge of my emotions, watching the shadows burning in the dark
And I'm in love, and I'm terrified for the first time in the last time, in my only life

I'm tired of counting sheep

2011-06-30T09:39:00.000-07:00

It's 12.40am currently, but I don't feel like turning in just yet. So... Decided to blog here. Btw, the book in the second picture was what I'd just purchased a few weeks ago but it looks like I haven't got the time to get myself fully immersed in it. :/ Oh well.

TGIF tomorrow. First week of lessons were alright, stress level at minimum, haha. Really need to motivate myself in order to do well. GO HAZEL

I'm staying back at school to complete my art assignment tomorrow, ugh. Goodnight!

Guys

2011-06-26T07:33:00.000-07:00

I hate it when guys are such talkers. They would rather blabber about how tough their week had been, doing this and that, how the got their muscle cramps, back aches, wounds, cuts etc, how theyre falling sick and feel sooooo bad (damn turn off, guys are supposed to be physically stronger than girls), how they keep on grumbling about what's getting in their way instead of having a proper conversation with you. And they have no idea that I(or other people) are actually going through the same thing as them/worse.

It's quite... annoying.

Revolutionary

2011-06-19T08:19:00.000-07:00

PhotoBooth pictures taken at Desmond's house when we went over for project! Rest are on fb. :)
Went to the gym this morning, only did bicycling on the machine. Still no running for me. :( I can feel my muscles hardening... And training resumes in 2 days!

Ok bb!

2011-06-14T20:46:00.000-07:00

my BB's lock button is so soft (easy pressed) and i end up calling people from my contact list accidentally. apologies to anyone who i've called and is reading this!

i cannot believe i'm actually doing chem now... moreover it's pure chem. i've no idea why we're doing pure for this chapter. hopefully i'll see improved grades next term. i cannot stand my stupidity. i actually have lots of work yet to be completed. but i hate studying ughzzz.

maybe someone should try motivating me in some way or another

oh and just to tell ya'll... my camera's getting repaired now. but due to the rainwater which kinda seeped into it, some parts in the cam are rusty and need to get replaced. $84 ;(

2011-06-11T09:39:00.000-07:00

undulyx.tumblr.com MY TUMBLR!

Picturesque

2011-06-10T08:02:00.000-07:00

Gonna attempt my holiday homework. Hopefully I won't give up halfway. Oh &&& I'm gonna get hotcakes tomorrow morn YUM. OK I'm really really lazy to do my homework argh, I think I'd rather do the reflection on my trip to China now. Pfft.
I hate homework. :(

MEIHUI IS BACK FROM PERTH! Da bombzz is back. HAHAHA kidding. I'm bored of looking at my homework.

Random stuff

2011-06-09T07:42:00.000-07:00

Some random pictures taken at home when I was bored. Very much overdue though. I just came home from dinner with my family at Imperial Treasure! Impromptu decision to go there but the food was good. And then we went shopping for my bro's clothes and some groceries and back home. :)

you caught me off guard

2011-06-08T07:57:00.000-07:00

I apologise for not being able to blog the pictures out. :( I can't deliver the pictures from my camera to the desktop for some reason... the desktop can't read the memory card. Ugh. and when most of the time I use my lappie to upload my photos, it just had to die on me a few days ago. It can be turned on, but I can't see no shit on its screen!
It feels like all my electronic stuff are falling apart. Including my precious camera. :( I think it's kinda spoilt? Should be caused by the rainwater while we were climbing mount huangshan in China. :(
Luckily my phone's fine.
On a very much happier note, I went for a shopping spree(kind of) at Topshop today. Am waiting for Jamie to upload the photos we took with her cam when we went shopping yesterday. Hehe. And oh, my desktop just hanged. Very cool.

2011-06-06T10:28:00.000-07:00

I get jealous thinking that someone else could make you happier than I could.

2011-06-05T22:47:00.001-07:00

Guys, I'm back from China! Shall blog about it tomorrow with pictures. :) It was an immersion program organised by the school. Had training(wasn't exactly supposed to train, according to the doc but I still did anyway) and all that four days of training actually equivalents to one month's worth of regular training in Singapore! That was why my muscles ached really badly. I could fall down suddenly while walking hahhaaha.
You can even see people smoking everywhere you go. And spitting on grounds. Lots of excess saliva. Ugh, disgusting. But all in all, everyone enjoyed themselves. Especially when it's almost time to go to bed. I guess it was a great experience.

:)

2011-05-18T08:13:00.000-07:00

I want to show you someone special

HAHAHA yep, it's that baby girl! These were taken during december 2010, her first visit to Singapore. She's actually african-chinese, but born in USA. ISNT SHE SUPER CUTE.. Oh, and she's cousins with my mom, which makes her my aunt. HAHA.

Well I just wanted to tell you how interesting my family is, sometimes.

Can't wait for the June holidays. I need my life back. BTW, I'm unable to attend ALTC this holiday as I'll be in China, training. Thinking about how much fun the others will have, I feel :(
But all is fine, ALL IS FINE. I can have as much fun in China with ma mates

Training starts tomorrrow. ;)

Sometimes, the person who tries to keep everyone happy is always the most lonely person. So, never leave them alone, because they will never say that they need you.
True that.

Gdnite

2011-05-17T08:11:00.000-07:00

HAHAH MY BLOG IS SO UGLY NOW. gimme some time to beautify it okay! Ze blog needs a revamp.

2011-05-09T21:25:00.000-07:00

Go listen to Speak Now by Daryl Aiden Yow. ;)

Oh and
Can I choose not to study but still ace my exams
Can I not go to school
Can I browse through every worksheet and everything remains there till the exam ends
Can I be smarter
Can I take the next flight to Canada/Australia/USA and stay there for the rest of my life
CAN I BE MORE MOTIVATED TO STUDY PLEASEEEEE preeeeedy please

I'm damn whiney............... Not liking it at all. Oh and studying yesterday @ Meihui's crib was good. But I guess that whole time studying chemistry was totally wasted sad face.

sunday

2011-05-08T01:33:00.000-07:00

sometimes you can't help but wonder if it's better to hang on or to just let go

2011-05-06T09:38:00.000-07:00

This is so cute! Oh btw, I want to change my blog template(whatever it's called), this hasn't been changed for the longest time. But I'm lazy to do it. Ok no, it's that I don't know how. Hahahahahaha.

Exams

2011-05-06T09:14:00.000-07:00

I think my Emath paper 1 is a goner.
Everything was supposed to go smoothly, until I felt a strong urge to pee. Yes, to pee. I really needed to answer nature's call so badly that I couldnt move much nor do my math properly. I couldn't think, couldn't press the right values into the calculator, couldn't write much.

Guys, I just ruined my math paper just because I wanted to pee. I am still sad.

2011-04-26T04:21:00.000-07:00

You said forever

2011-04-26T03:37:00.000-07:00

I wish you could drink your words, and realize how bitter they taste.

So... These were taken at the midst of studying @ MH's last week, on Good Friday! ♥♥

The ones below were taken during Easter when I finally went to church again. :)

Joelle!

And Sara!

Had an enjoyable weekend! x

Oh, and I love strolling back home from Simei station alone. Just a random fact. ;)

Everything happens for a damn reason

2011-04-26T03:26:00.000-07:00

Oh guys, this was my 15th. Spent it with the loveliest bunch! ♥

-The happiest people dont have the best of everything, they just make the best of everything.

2011-04-26T03:10:00.001-07:00

So far school has been really boring... Can't help but let my eyelids take control.

Failed my SS test by half a mark. :( Why doesn't my brain process/why don't I write fast enough?! I only had time to finish the SBQ questions.... Which is totally unacceptable. I'll fail over and over again if I don't change. :(

Ohhhh and guess what Desmond, as a really great friend did to me after receiving our SS results.

Desmond: Hazel.
Me: Ya?
Desmond: I passed. -walks away-

I want to beat him to a pulp. t(-__- t)

2011-04-22T09:00:00.000-07:00

I'm alive but I'm barely breathing

2011-04-02T09:10:00.000-07:00

I'd say that yesterday was one of the worst days in my life.

Okay, gonna swallow my pride, sacrifice gym for training tomorrow. I am not giving up. Yet.

2011-03-30T08:43:00.000-07:00

Studying SS..........................I wanna die pl0xxxx

2011-03-30T01:34:00.001-07:00

How weird I look when I smile without my teeth sometimes

Counting down to the day of my competition. This are getting way too frustrating for me. Yet again, I'm standing alone. Why don't I ever find someone who is fretting about the same shit as me, crying together with me, complaining, whining about what is getting in our way, willing to go through bad times with me? Me, therefore takes things into my own hands will finally end up screwing every. single. thing.

nuff said, getting to work.

I'm unscathed

2011-03-23T21:58:00.001-07:00

most decent picture from my phone. haha, sent by Lisa through whatsapp!

training is dreading. aggravation... thought that i could have a day's rest but unfortunately training has to continue, reason being the competition is already round the corner. say, in 2 weeks? i do enjoy my cca but sometimes there's this pressurizing feeling... :/

2011-03-21T07:12:00.001-07:00

to hell with you insensitive people. i hate it when people express their insensitivity/useless thoughts or comments towards each other so openly, yet so unknown to how the other party might feel. not everyone (or me) can take shitty mannerisms. really.

2011-03-20T02:01:00.000-07:00

Hello, Beautiful

2011-03-19T09:03:00.001-07:00

the feeling when you realize that someone is better than you in every other way. it sucks, you're so envious. you feel like an idiot.

Rather feel pain than nothing at all

2011-03-10T03:10:00.000-08:00

These are from last saturday, when my class and I had this bonding session at Yeehern's place, hahaha. So it was all about fun, swimming, pizza! Celebrated Sheryl's birthday as well and her cake was one of the pizzas we ordered. :-)

Great day.

Oh.... And some pictures from tumblr.

I want this on my under arm!!!

Always loved tumblr but I've only started posting pictures only now.... Haha.

I miss MH so much, and same for Jim. Finally meeting em tmr. :)

2011-03-09T07:49:00.000-08:00

Everything happens for a reason

2011-03-02T08:01:00.001-08:00

I don't understand you, really. It's even pissing me off. :/

Sitting by the telephone,

2011-02-28T04:45:00.000-08:00

Pictures from Lisa's 15th birthday dinner! Impromptu, but had a little bit of fun. :)

Imitating a little girl in the chinese textbook

Aggresive

Hello guys! So I haven't been blogging recently cause of the Common Tests. Well, I guess not entirely on the tests but I think I was just lazy heehee. Okay anyway, I've gotta feeling that I won't be doing for for certain subjects. Although I'll be reallyyyy sad but I guess I'll do better for the midyears, promise.

I'll get back as soon as I can, hope that I'm not lazy!

Ciao xxx

2011-02-22T07:26:00.000-08:00

And where were you, when everything was fallin' apart...

Someone help me to finish up my art. Even though I'm in combined science, IT'S STILL TIRING OKAY. Art is soooooo not simple, ahaha seriously. Really x10 time consuming till there's not much time to study other subjects.. NO JOKE.

Anyway it's Lisa's birthday today! Did something I regretted though. Ugh. Okay school is so annoying. Sorry there are no pictures.. Yet. I'll update with them in the next post! I feel letharrrrrgic, like a dog. :/ IF ONLY I WAS BACK IN AUSSIE.

2011-02-18T08:18:00.000-08:00

Okay I've been in front of the computer ever since don't-know-what-time but... I don't feel like turning it off. Oh btw, TGIF. This week just passed like a breeze. On other weeks I'll find myself grumbling about how very slow that week is passing (though I'm actually damn afraid that time may pass way too fast, like reallyyyy fast. HAHA).
The common tests. I think it kinda keeps my mind off some stuff.. Oh and did I mention that I've been much more forgetful lately? My memory is failing me. Fancy myself putting so much trust in it.....
Alright anyway, tomorrow's gonna be study day at... Somewhere. Alone. Anyone who wants to join me, gimme a buzz. Hahahhaha ok kiddin.

Looking at someone else's tumblr site full of images of gorgeous americans. Oh god.

The sweetest sadness in your eyes

2011-02-08T08:54:00.000-08:00

1.12am and currently, I'm still thinking hard on whatever else to draw on my sketchbook. The page I'm at now is only half-filled with pictures or rather, thingssss which suit the theme 'Good deeds'.
This sucks. If I had better grades last year, I wouldn't be sitting here now racking my brains on what to draw. I have Math and POA tests tomorrow. I have Art lessons tomorrow too, and I'm lagging behind. Neither one of these subjects takes the priority. How now, brown cow? Well I'm prolly gonna regret saying this but, life sucks as it is now.

I want to get out of this place. :/

Tough love baby, tough love

2011-02-05T08:04:00.000-08:00

Because Hazel, there's no one there who you can truly trust. There's always a mask behind every face, everytime someone becomes a really special person to you, they show you that you're nothing, they show you that you're unworthy...
Thank you for my hopeless dreams

2011-02-04T08:53:00.000-08:00

I hope this isn't too much to ask- I want to be like you

I just wanted to know how much I was worth

2011-01-31T08:52:00.000-08:00

What does not destroy me, makes me stronger

2011-01-24T04:40:00.000-08:00

So yesterday was a day spent with MH. *love*
Went for a movie, BURLESQUE! It was a great one, plus there's this really handsome guy acting in there, BTH OMG.
From the pictures you can see how bad my eyebags are................... Ok whatever. Walked around the mall, really nice time catching up with her. ;)

Byeee!

PS: Go listen to 'You haven't seen the last of me' by Cher! It's from the movie, I find it motivating so... Yeah I just wanted to share it with you guys.

All those nights we dance by the moonlight,

2011-01-22T09:49:00.000-08:00

2R2'10!

So guys, these were from camp! I had no pictures to blog about so I decided to post some which were from koref. Hahaha.

Anyway, I've yet to decide whether to transfer from art to dnt or not... :/

School has been alright for me this week. Well, at least the stress level is at its minimum. CNY and Valentine's day coming up!

Okay, I have no idea why I'm even excited for Valentine's.... I guess I'm love deprived.

2011-01-19T06:36:00.000-08:00

Hi guys, a short post for today before I get on with my work.

I would just like to say something about how a really simple sentence could actually brighten my spirits and make me smile again... Inside.
I have wushu trainings on tuesdays and thursdays, and most of the time wushu people have to cramp in that little space with the basketball girls, since they have their training on both days too. And as most people know, we got this carpet meant to be used for our trainings and it gives off this kinda fur when we train on it (HAHAH I know it's darn annoying. People who are not careful will slip on it) as I guess it's still new and.. Yeah. So most of the time we make the effort to sweep the floor and get the fur out of the basketball court. While I was doing it, a girl (an acquaintance/ hi-bye friend) said: 'Thank you Hazel!' *Smiles* while playing basketball.
Someone actually said that to me, aww... I was so happy. Hahaha.

Okay that's all. Bye!!

The heat is on,

2011-01-14T07:29:00.000-08:00

Don't like my legs.

My mom focused on the wrong thing!

My dad looks unusually untidy but I guess he really was having a good time. :)

Try spotting a little boy in a batman costume leaning against the wall.

Melbourne!

By the way, I'm back from camp guys. :)

That eccentric old lady

2011-01-09T05:57:00.000-08:00

A H&M teddy bear! Haha. Thanks Yisuen for your christmas gift. :)

Tomorrow's the day you guys have been waiting for... Okay maybe not. But good luck to those who are getting their O'level results tomorrow, have faith!

2011-01-08T06:32:00.000-08:00

You should never give yourself a chance to fall apart because, when you do, it becomes a tendency and it happens over and over again. You must practise staying strong instead.

-Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat Pray Love

And this is for everyone

1st and 2nd day in Melbourne

2011-01-07T07:04:00.000-08:00

These are a few photos from the first 2 days in Melbourne.

At the car rental thing....

Outside the motel

At Weribee Zoo

Spiderweb:

Okay I just realised I haven't posted any pictures of animals. Hahaha.

I'll post some of the rest next time! Hopefully you don't get tired of looking at all these... I feel excited all over again just by posting the photos. Hahaha.

Anyway, school was fine for the past few days! The first week has passed... Have a great weekend guys. :)

Meihui turned 14

2011-01-06T04:55:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone! Thinking of creating a new blog... Can't stand this one, hahaha. Should I?
Okay anyway, here's an update about Meihui's advanced birthday celebration a few weeks ago! Hehe, love you Mei. ;)

L and J wishing too

Haha, Jamie! And I look manly.

HAHAHA, sorry Joel!

Goodbye!

2011

2010-12-30T23:33:00.000-08:00

2010, The year which holds the best memories.
I'm so sad it's ending...........................................
I wonder how 2011 would be like... HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

2010-12-30T22:55:00.000-08:00

I'm already missing the days I spent in Melbourne. It's a great place to be in; clean streets, friendly australians, and it's somewhere almost completely different from Singapore.
I did lots of sightseeing when I was there and I felt really relaxed and carefree, even when I'm just strolling along a simple beach, not a tourist attraction or whatsoever.
Well, town is different though. It actually looks a bit like Hong Kong to me, haha. The shopping here isn't that satisfying... That is, if you're a real shopaholic. You've to go to the right places for shopping!! But it sucks when the shopping malls close so early. Pfft. Oh plus we lost a bag of stuff(we bought from there), dayyyyyum.
I'll upload some pictures the next postttttttt. ;)

2010-12-14T09:02:00.000-08:00

Enough of all my wordy, pathetic, education-related posts. It's getting really annoying.

Wit and verve

2010-12-01T02:23:00.000-08:00

Feeling bored results in me being random all the time. But I think I like it. I actually like taking pictures of random stuff when I'm bored. Hahaha.

I've got a new owl ring! Heheh. :D

I'm glad I have plans for tomorrow. If not I'll have to stay home and play with my camera again or else I'll go to the library. I really need to buck up on Chinese, pffft.

Anyway, TIME SOARS. It's 1st December today. A month of holidays had just gone by... Make full use of your holidays guys. Do your homework. HAHAHA.

And I'm excited for Melbourneeeee wooh. :)

Ooh plus, Meihui's leaving for Taiwan in 2 days! Gonna miss her. :'(

Enslaved

2010-12-01T01:57:00.000-08:00

When I baked cookies. :)

And this was when my little cousin and I went over to my parents' office.

It's alright if you don't get what the pictures mean, like the last two. They're screws and the next one's boxes of rack compartments? Haha, I'm not actually sure myself. I find my little cousin cute zomgggg.

2010-11-25T22:19:00.001-08:00

Because there's nobody who feels exactly like you
It is much easier to fake a smile than to explain what you really feel inside

The faithfullest heart

2010-11-25T07:57:00.000-08:00

These pictures were taken weeks ago, when I went to MH's crib!!

Up by 7.30 tomorrow. :( Reason why I hate trainings to start in the mornings at the club... Oh and btw I just made an enemy 2 days ago there. Hahaha. I was just training with my broadsword in hand, and I had to stab(??!!) and... The tip of my broadsword missed his face by a centimetre or so. And yeah, I guess he hated me since then. Petty kid. I said sorry, okay?! Btw he's prolly in lower primary. HA.

Gonna do some emath now... BYE!

2010-11-11T08:03:00.000-08:00

'This stupid judgemental world,' as I heaved a great sigh before leaving myself to ponder about lamentable issues that have recently occured which seem to have taken a toll on my once-peaceful life.

2010-11-11T06:57:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone. So I've been allocated to a combined science class(This can't get any worse :( ). Honestly, that is the last place I would choose to go. I have no idea why I'm chosen to go through this once again; Everything not going by what I expect, or what I rightfully deserve(I'm not sure if I actually do). But I'm certain and very much aware of what I'd done and had worked hard enough to achieve whatever I aimed for. For the longest time, I've been wondering why. What have I done wrong? Why do I not get a chance to choose unlike everyone else? It's not like I'd lacked anything else. It's true. It's true this world isn't fair.

I'm sorry I always have issues to rant about.. I'm a really problematic person, and my blog is the only place I find suitable for things like this. I hopeee someone feels me. And again, I hope hope hope I won't be judged by anyone else... :(

Your touch

2010-11-08T07:43:00.000-08:00

It's finally time to complain about my eyebags, although they've been there since forever. And my chin... Why so sharp? :(

Random pictures when I was bored the other day.

Finally able to upload my past pictures here.

My favourite slippers.

So... I guess the O levels are ending this week. Time really flies, it feels like it was only 2 days ago when the O's began.

If any O level taker happen to pass by my blog, I wish you good luck in the remaining papers and don't give up. ;)

I had a reallyyy boring afternoon... But kinda like feeling bored. I like the feeling that I'm carefree and I don't have to fret over exams and have emotions all mixed up. Anyway, in the evening I attended Discoveries '10! Interesting stuff. Haha~

Am already doing something about my... Fats. I SHALL NOT FAIL.

& Movie on Friday with mah favourites!

Bye!

You're everything I need to know

2010-11-07T08:28:00.000-08:00

I look drunk

Hi everyone, my class chalet was indeed fun and I guess we're gonna have another gathering soon this holiday. Today I had notices that friends from my class are sick.. That reminded me; More than 20 people shared the same spoon which was going around, used to feed people with stingrays. Hahahaha.
I need to blog more... Does anyone even read this space? :( And I think I needa slim down quite badly.
Goodnight x

2010-11-04T03:25:00.001-07:00

Hi guys I'm back from my class chalet! Shall blog about it soon. :)
By the way i think I'm growing horizontally, oh my gosh. :( Instead of looking thinner I'm actually looking kinda bigger than before... Darn.
Oh and my skin's peeling from my sunburnnnnnnnnn.

Someone like you

2010-10-31T02:28:00.000-07:00

Pictures from the last day of school. I think we were supposed to take pix with our classmates too but we got carried away and took pix of ourselves only.. But oh well, it was fun anyway. :) I don't know how it would be like without my friends/classmates, really. I won't feel complete anymore with all the noise, ganging up and bullying of teachers, and all the fun we had as a class. All of you to me are one of a kind.. Even though we've got into fights with one another last time, ahaha. Hope no one forgets me. :(

Since it's the holidays already, I'll prolly be updating more! Goodbye.

2010-10-24T02:05:00.001-07:00

Going off you

Secret

2010-10-22T06:21:00.000-07:00

You trust no one but yourself. That's not the way it should be. Everyone should learn to trust others and take their views into consideration. Whenever things turn out the way it shouldn't have, you put all the blame on others, never ever giving a second thought whether or not the problem lies with yourself... Seriously.

Fiesta! As you can see from the board at the back... We are the ZAIS, HAHAHA. Not all of us though.. :) Did everything last minute but I guess it went alright.
Short post tonight.. I'll bring my cam out soon! Goodbye. x

2010-10-21T06:11:00.000-07:00

Hiiiiiii MY EXAMS ARE OVER! I know I'm late but whatever! Okay so... There will be fiesta held tomorrow, my class will be providing nice food+games (Idk what it's gonna be) so I think you all should come over. :)
Anyway, for the past few weeks my friends and I had been studying like, kinda mad. I never knew that I could actually be so hardworking. But usually only approximately 40% of the information gets absorbed into my brain whenever I study. I did my best for the exams though.. Except for Science. Tbh, I placed my other subjects way above Science cause I felt that I was bad at it. My classmates are really good at Science and I feel saddd even when I get a B3. :/ They all get distinctions and stuff...
But this exam kinda surprised me as it wasn't as difficult as I thought it would be. Which is good I think. For now I just wish to see contenting results...
And I want to get into a JC (For now, but please don't laugh) so that I can get into a university and lead a really good life in the future. Okay so that would be my motivation to study. I CAN'T BELIEVE I ACTUALLY HAD NO GOALS, NO GOALS AT ALL FOR THE PAST YEARS. Stupid me.

I'm done talking. Goodnight :)

2010-10-17T00:46:00.000-07:00

It's not that I'm forgetful, I just don't want to listen to you, bitch. Don't ever ask me for help anymore. And vice versa.

2010-10-04T07:59:00.000-07:00

I've only been revising my Science notes for less than a hour, and I'm losing motivation. Not much time now I don't want to study anymore but I'm so afraid that I'll lose out to everyfreakingone, really. Someone brainwash me please.

Beautiful, you are so beautiful,

2010-09-25T10:19:00.000-07:00

I think there should be an update here, so here it is. Well actually I really have no idea what I should write about. Anyway, do you think I'm sexist or something? Because I haven't had a crush or an eyecandy ever since I stepped into Ngee Ann almost 2 years ago... Okay maybe I've had eyecandies, but still..

HAHAHA. Goodnight all!

Bitterness

2010-09-20T09:06:00.000-07:00

Oh hiiii so now I'm just staring at the computer with my fingers typing typing typing on the keyboard... My hair covering half my face.
Guess what. I have a science test tomorrow and we'll be seeing Ms Farhana for 2.5hours tomorrow too, which is not really good stuff. School is dreading, why?

Anyway, school life has been mundane. Really mundane. Eoys are round the corner and are arriving really fast. Went to the library in the afternoon to revise for the test tomorrow. And by the way, there are still so many chapters of history we've yet to cover. I forsee a distressed 14 year old in the weeks to come.

Seems like you're no different

But, you didn't tell me it was over

2010-09-16T08:41:00.000-07:00

My chinese teacher. She doesn't seem to care less about our class now. We handed in her work, she lost it, and now she demands for a new complete set. Seriously... It's not like whatever she does now can help us improve our grades. And the way she teaches feels like she's just going through the motions. I don't know how to help myself either, I don't wanna fail CHINESE.
Anyway, lessons have been a bore and I can safely say that nothing keeps me from feeling restless and reallll tired. Okay I'm sorry I have to admit it, but it's Science lessons. And I apologise again because this is such a complainy post. I'm starting to not like school anymore :( Tho it's not like I've always liked it very much last time. K I THINK I SHOULD STOP HERE. I'M VERY LONG-WINDED BUT I DON'T LIKE THIS. And yes I shouldn't be complaining because there are thousands of children dying to go to school but aren't as fortunate to, I know that! But... I just want to say that.................................. OK STOP HERE.

I hope tomorrow will be better

2010-09-15T03:48:00.000-07:00

Money can't buy happiness. That's something we all have to agree with. But if money is able to bring/buy us at least a moment of happiness, I guess this is still something worth reconsidering.

Whadya think? Actually I'm not very sure myself...

Stormy nights with you

2010-09-11T23:37:00.000-07:00

Hi guys, be reminded that we'll be resuming lessons tomorrow. ): Time to just kiss our hols goodbye now. Pictures from last Wednesday, our trip to Lim Bo Seng Memorial for our history project. I guess it was kinda fun walking around and snapping pictures of ourselves like tourists, tho we've been living in Singapore for the whole of our lives... Haha.

Anyway, I've yet to mail the videos we took there to someone to help edit it. I reeeally need windows live to work now, PLEASE. That thing is taking a hell lot of time.

Got to bear with it... Have a gooooooood evening people. X

2010-09-08T07:38:00.000-07:00

Sometimes people should really think about how others will actually feel after listening to something they've said to them. It could be quite heartbreaking(or whatever word)...
Too bad that we're all not perfect. If we are, there'll be nothing to criticize/talk bad about. Too bad that we're all not borne the same also. The same reason applies. Too bad that actually, I care a lot about what people say

I was lost for a moment but now found

2010-09-04T22:44:00.000-07:00

Sorry but this doesn't suit my appetite at all.

Caught the ballet performance 'Out on the dance floor' on friday @ Vjc. 'Twas quite a good one to me... With ballerinas going on pointe and stuff :)
After that we all went for light supper and some of us had to chiong home to submit our literature assignments, HAHA. Anyway, good time spent!

Don't worry I'll be fine

2010-08-31T21:53:00.000-07:00

You know it cuts like a knife,
But I'm too proud to show it
Pain in my chest,
It feels like I lost my breath

I'm not gonna tell you to stay, no
Cause I got my pride,
I'm not gonna cry
There won't be no tears falling from these eyes

Now I gotta try,
To keep it inside
These words,
Are better left unspoken cause...

Give up on what's not worth fighting for

2010-08-30T01:34:00.001-07:00

Here are a few pictures of us and more of other random things in MH's crib. Pictures were from... 2 weeks ago or so? You know I'm always late when it comes to blogging/posting. Hehehe.

Alright, lessons were fine today, but time seemed to be dragging when at class this morning. I have to confess I haven't been doing my homework lately and I don't feel very good :/

Anyway, there will be a break for 2 days due to Teachers' Day, which sounds quite relieving, haha. I wish that the September hols would approach at a much faster rate too...

Oh yes, there are slimmer chances that I'll be able to go to New Zealand this year end :( I blame the tour agencies. Well I guess we're still considering on where we should head to.

Till then, x!